Monday, October 25, 2010

Race and Attractiveness

For the longest time (actually always) those two things have played a part in my life, not in a huge way like some sort of Oscar winning story line about having to deal with racism or ugly people having inner beauty and what not, but just in a subtle way. All my life since I was a kid I was told I was unattractive by my peers (no this is not an attempt to get words of encouragement that im not that ugly I know im not.) any ways, in high school I was out right told I was "ugly" now when your a teen or younger that can be really devastating. Mind you now I'm no "Brad Pitt" but I think im pretty cool. thats just the way its been, even today I get the occasional remark, subtle as it may be its still there. Beauty may be in the eye of the beholder but some people just have a harder time of it than others.

Racism, well actually I don't know really if I could call it that, maybe more along the lines of being stereo typed, I'm Hispanic and to some people that means that I should love to work out doors, that I'm really strong, that I speak perfect Spanish, and that I should not know much about the modern world ( you might ask why not the chiseled Latin hunk type you see in movies? well I mentioned earlier looks play a part in that), if you didn't know me, I look like just swam across the river so to speak. The generic I work in the fields possible illegal alien Mexican stereo type. So naturally when I have a good idea at work I just get a nod but when some one else has a simular idea (some one who is more attractive or not a so so looking Hispanic they get a bit more attention. Maybe other people feel this way maybe not, this is how I feel, now I don't raise to much of a fuss because I do get heard , I just have to try a little harder than my good looking or non Hispanic counterparts. Well hopefully anyone reading this isn't offended by me because im not outraged or because they think I am making something out of nothing, but if anyone else deals with subtle or outright stereo typing or being a little over looked because of your "looks" well you are not alone. remember just because a person looks a certain way doesn't mean they are.

I love technology, (why did I say that? eh I just do)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

A departure from the norm

Ok its been a while but hey, here I am. Today there is no rambling just a proud dad, you see my youngest son Caleb, has been writing scribbles on paper or old note books or almost anything he can write on. He said he wants to be a published writer someday, so we figured he could try to maintain his own blog (with a little supervision from mom and dad of course) little stories from the mind of Caleb he does have a morbid sense of humor so its mostly ghost/zombie/monster stories. could my son be the next Steven King? well at least he learn some typing skills and what not. Who knows perhaps fame and fortune await him if he truly enjoys writing. or maybe this is the beginning of a life long hobby? as long as hes happy and he loves what he does its all good :)

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